I don't know if you're interested, but the reason I started
smoking was purely out of curiosity. I wondered what everybody was talking about. Sure I could shake my head and laugh at the funny stories they told about being stoned, but I never actually knew what they were talking about, or just how they felt. So, I finally tried it. I was scared at first, and I was also very aware of my highness. I would say something really dumb like, "I guess I'm high." It was terrific. I enjoyed the way it made me feel, and I continued using it. But as every kid that smokes will tell you, there came a time when I wanted to move on to bigger and better things. I first tried better quality grass (Colombian Gold, Jamaican), and then I gradually worked my way up to things like speed, downers, THC, acid, hash, and joints with LSD in them. But because I didn't care for some of the effects that some of them brought me, I never used them again. I am not ashamed of trying them, and I can tell people of my experiences and hopefully help them to look at both sides of the drug.Music? Well, I do know that if you don't particularly like a song and you hear it when you're high, you tend to not dislike the song as much. What I mean is that you enjoy music more when you're high. Also songs that I didn't understand or didn't think had any meaning are suddenly so meaningful that it's a trip. For example, our rock station plays hard rock twenty-four hours a day. When I listen, sometimes I'll hear a song I don't particularly care to listen to, so I'll change it or turn it off. But when I'm high, I can listen to it all the time, no matter what song comes on, and I enjoy every song from start to finish. It's like the beat and words are impounded in your mind, as if you're doing the singing. I believe that music can make you higher than you actually are.
I'm afraid I can't help you much on the subject of sex. I'm still a virgin, but I can tell you how the desires feel. Sexual arousal is one thing that is definitely brought on when you smoke. Ask anyone. I would say this feeling would be very close to my opinion of lust. I don't mean you go out and find anyone. I mean you are more apt to have sex with someone while stoned. When I think about it, the only word that does describe this feeling is lust.
Being around lots of people while stoned is great. You talk to people you normally wouldn't, you like people more than you normally do too. You realize how much you care for your friends, and you are somehow closer than before.
One of my hobbies is pretending. When I'm high the things I dream of are somehow not as far away, at least not as far away as when I'm straight. Feelings are more noticeable, and if you're high and around a bunch of people, you can sense more easily a feeling of hate, or you can tell when people really care for each other. You can sense other people's fears more easily. You can tell when someone doesn't like you. It's like you are a machine and can look through people and see their feelings.
The only way I could think of using marijuana badly is for means of escape. Real escape. I mean if you have a hard time at home, or you always come in high because your dad's yelling doesn't sound as loud, or your mom's bruises don't look as bad, I guess then pot is used as alcohol. Or because you think you look prettier when you're high. All these things are wrong reasons to use pot. Unlike alcohol, pot can also be used for good reasons. Anytime you smoke pot, have a few friends over, and just have a nice time—this is using marijuana well. I feel sorry for people who can't use this for what it provides—pleasure and peace. It's almost as good as being in love. In fact, the two are very much alike.
There is one thing about marijuana that amazes me. You know how it is said you can never distinguish a certain age or point when a boy becomes a man? There is no exact moment when a boy completely leaves his childhood and the next second he's a man and ready to begin adulthood, right? Well, it's the same with marijuana. When you start smoking, there is never a point when you can say, "Okay, I know at exactly the point where I stopped being straight and started getting high." It just never happens. It must enter your system so slowly and carefully that you are not even aware it's happening. That is, until you're high. It's the same thing when you're coming down. You simply can't tell. You know if you're high or straight; you just don't know where the two meet.